Sometimes I feel super duper lost.
I have these moments when I should probably hunker down and try to write something – there are rare instances when I’m able to get a few sentences or paragraphs out but more often than not I end up lost in this spiral of self doubt and I eventually catch myself staring off into space kind of ilke this:
This is usually the point where I decide I need to chill out and take a break – maybe it’d be cool to see what the ol’ Facebook friends are up to.
This is never, I repeat NEVER a good idea. Because if you’re feeling directionless and unsure of yourself, there’s nothing like a Facebook news feed to defeat any remnant of your self esteem – all with not-so-smoothly integrated advertising.
Some guy you hooked up with like-maybe-once-or-twice just graduated from law school!
That one girl you used to do theater with is starting a yoga parlor, because apparently that’s a thing!
Four more of the evangelical kids you went to high school with are having babies! Yay for them and their functioning sets of reproductive organs!
It’s just so… GUH. I think I finally get why Facebook guy (RIP) was always looking so forlorn.
I’m not alone in this, right? Sometimes it seems like everyone is taking 2 steps forward and I can’t even convince myself to get out of bed in the morning. Although to be fair I usually wake up with 2 adorable cats curled up next to me and few people have the willpower to resist purring in unison. But the point remains – social networking is a really easy way to make yourself feel inadequate.
How can you compare to your e-peers when your triumphs are more trivial? Your old coworker may have just gotten into the grad program of their dreams, but hey. You picked out the right cardigan for your outfit today so… you know… high-five, you! Next step: take off that toenail polish you’ve been “growing out” for weeks now. It might look like Pangea but it’ll never get you as many upvotes as Bruno Mars.
I think you just have to find the good moments in your life and focus on those. The bright spots in my days are (unsurprisingly) food and animals. I bring in baked goods for my coworkers every Friday so there’s always a sugar high to close out the week – that’s nice. Also there’s this adorable dog named Asta who sleeps behind my desk at work all day. I made this gif out of a photo her – it symbolizes how I spend most of my days: sleeping or just spacing out.
I guess you also can’t expect that goals and success will just fall into your lap. You’ve gotta make outlines, to-do lists, and like… a vision board or something. Because if you don’t have an objective then you’re just gonna keep sitting around and whining about it. You’re probably gonna have to get off of Facebook too because, let’s face it, it’s kind of a bottomless pit of baby pictures, Candy Crush invites, and existential despair.
Y’all do know how to make some pretty cute babies though. Give your junk a fist bump for me.